Can I just say that I really, really hate that I still have tears left to cry over this? After this long one would think that the tears would be all dried up and I would have no feelings left. But I do. I don't want them, but I have them anyway. And even worse? I cried in front of him and that just makes me mad because he will see it as weakness and probably use it against me. When what I want him to see is someone that no longer cares, is strong and moving on.
Why do I have to care so much?